Love embraces me, and I wonder, how can I have the audacity to complain?
I feel like my body is fragmented into tons of little bits and pieces that I need to glue together. I decide I should handle this game, and while I glue the pieces onto a flat surface I must accidentally look away because I keep misplacing pieces. The game gets too intense! So I decide to sleep and figure out the end of the puzzle game in the morning.
Once the morning sun rises into the sky and I wake up, I notice that the puzzle has changed shape.
How is this possible?
But it is. Somehow it is. And somehow we all understand.
Today was a jumble of emotions and reactions.
I talked about friends. I talked about standards and morals. I talked out my thoughts. I talked to figure out this puzzle.
Seeing friends that I have known for nearly a year, but who have come and gone in my experience, I realize exactly how tender life is. It is unknowing, and it is experimenting. It is full of surprises.
Yet I want to belong to someone. I want a friend I can depend on being in my experience. Is it only a human wish?
Can this puzzle every be solved?